Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Fight Against the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a gloomy Monday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a sharp pain erupted behind my one eye. Then came rapid jolts, reminiscent of electric shocks. As each class came and went, the discomfort subsided and then came back with greater force. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried ibuprofen, but the pain remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-blown pain in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically start with intense discomfort around a single eye that persists for three hours.

About 1 in 1000 people suffer by the condition, and males are more often diagnosed. Attacks usually start with sudden, excruciating pain focused on a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in periodic bouts; others have continuous attacks, defined by the lack of long symptom-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the intensity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. Another discovered 64% of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm during attacks; the figure fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a long-term sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, similar to many causes, made things more intense. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated behavior. Support finally came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been described throughout history. “The earliest account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They linked the ailment to an malevolent entity who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical healing records propose bizarre remedies for what some experts would classify as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a separate disorder, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk cures.

It was a European physician who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing daily at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by global medical committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major artery which delivers blood to the head. Leading specialists in diagnosing the condition note this.

In 1998, scientists released the results of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, published in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple operations before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor looked up his symptoms.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He works by eliminating other common head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific features such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But many first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need greater education. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a reassuring advisor guided me through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack passed.

Official guidelines on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a specific drug administered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the attacks of some people.

But leading specialists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the bout dictates the treatment.” Brief cycles with infrequent episodes are handled with abortive treatment only. Longer or more severe bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the side of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.

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Amy Holmes
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